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Goodbye to a spark of joy

zaiah calls kittens "little sparks of joy."

Before I met her, I'd always pretty much thought that a cat was a cat was a cat. I love cats, of course, and I've always lived with cats, but I pretty much thought that house cats were very similar to each other. Some are more friendly, some are more surly, but that's about it.

Her family raises tonkinese show cats, a breed I'd never heard of 'til we started dating. Tonkinese are what happens if you take an ordinary breed of house cat and you install "friendliness" and "joy" dials that go to 11. A middle-of-the-road Tonkinese thinks that you, as a person, are absolutely the most amazing and splendid thing that has ever happen in an amazing and splendid world; particularly friendly tonks are even more affectionate than that.

We often havetonk kittens going through our home. Her family breeds them, then they come to stay with us for a few weeks until they are sent away to whatever family adopts them. For the last several weeks, we have had a small litter of kittens, who went home last week.

Two of the litter arrived with FIP, a corona virus infection that's often lethal to kittens. We did everything we could to help them survive. One of the kittens made it. One of them didn't.

For a couple of weeks, the kittens seemed to be improving. They were happy and affectionate and enthusiastic about life; the little girl in the litter never seemed to quite shake her head cold, though. I woke up one morning to find her lying in her carrier, struggling for breath. I took her out and discovered she was very cold. I help her and stroked her for a couple of hours; she nuzzled into my arm, and even purred a bit. Then, suddenly, just like that, she was gone.

I have never really had to deal with death close-up before. I was, and still am, surprised by how much it hurt. zaiah and I buried her a day later. Even when I went inside to get her body, there was still a part of me that expected to find that I'd made some sort of profoundly stupid mistake and that I'd find her playing behind the desk and looking for something to eat, not wrapped up lifeless in a warm towel.

Goodbye, little spark of joy. I didn't get to know you nearly long enough.





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tacky_tramp
Aug. 30th, 2010 08:27 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. We lost a whole litter a few months ago, and it was gut-wrenching. *hug*
seinneann_ceoil
Aug. 30th, 2010 09:55 am (UTC)
*hug* I've been there.
keetara
Aug. 30th, 2010 11:15 am (UTC)
I am so sorry that you had to deal with that. It is horrible when that happens and I grieve with thee.

However, what I'm about to say isn't going to help much, but it has to be said. Please, DO NOT!!! foster anymore kittens in your home for at least 6 months, better a year. FIP is contagious through the environment even after the source is gone. It takes at least 6 months for it to die, sometimes even up to a year, even if it doesn't have a host. At least this is what I was told 8 years ago when it was thought that one of my cats had died from it. Turns out it wasn't in my case, but we knew that if it was we wouldn't be able to have another cat in the house for a long, lonely while.

It's possible that more research has been done, so things might have changed. Please check it out so that you don't accidentally end up with more infected cats.
samhainborn
Aug. 30th, 2010 03:52 pm (UTC)
As long as the environment is throughout cleaned with a trifectant, litter boxes and food dishes are either sterilized or replaced, there's no real need to wait. It does also help to have a dedicated room where the fosters are kept, though quarantining isn't necessary as it is the MUTATED form of the virus that causes FIP

FIP isn't contagious in the way that coccidia or URIs are contagious.

FIP is caused by the Corona virus. 90% of cats in the world are exposed to that virus- generally prenatally or right after birth via the mother. In all but about 5-6% it passes through the intestinal tract and the cat remains healthy. In 5-6% it mutates into FIP.

Whether or not the virus mutates is determined almost solely by genetics. If the cat is not genetically predisposed to mutate the virus it won't do so even if sharing a litter box with a cat who is shedding the virus. The majority of cats who mutate the virus become ill in kitten hood, but some will be fine until they have some sort of health catastrophe in later life- surgery etc- that sparks the mutation.

There is some evidence that stress plays a roll in whether or not a genetically predisposed cat actually mutates the virus. The thinking is that the stress experienced by shelter cats may account for the higher numbers of shelter cats who develop FIP- as opposed to cats in the general population. Not exposure or litter boxes or carriers or other cats.


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freefall127
Aug. 30th, 2010 11:51 am (UTC)
baby things do that. just die sometimes. it's really sad. on the other hand baby things, cats in particular, are such a joy to be around you have to withstand them dying sometimes to appreciate how wonderful they are.

anyway i'm sorry. best wishes.
susanlawton
Aug. 30th, 2010 12:16 pm (UTC)
She's waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. I know that does not help to bring back the joy, but it can make it bearable to know she's not hurting any longer.
janetmiles
Aug. 30th, 2010 12:47 pm (UTC)
I am sorry for your loss. May time diminish the pain and leave you with only sweet memories.
mlerules
Aug. 30th, 2010 02:26 pm (UTC)
My condolences.
roguebaby
Aug. 30th, 2010 03:07 pm (UTC)
Poor little girl. Tonks are my favorites, and I wanted to reach through the screen and steal her away.
samhainborn
Aug. 30th, 2010 03:38 pm (UTC)
My husband and I are fosters for a local no-kill rescue and we live in constant dread of FIP. We've lost two so far, the last past away last week.

I'm still raw from it.
samhainborn
Aug. 30th, 2010 05:17 pm (UTC)
past = passed, obv. Pre-caffeinated LJ'ing is a bad idea....
wimsey70
Aug. 30th, 2010 04:12 pm (UTC)
I lost a kitten to FIP back in February. It was horrible and heartbreaking. I actually had to make the decision to put her down. It was horrible. Just ghastly. I sympathize with what you're going through right now.
winterlady
Aug. 30th, 2010 04:31 pm (UTC)
I'm really sorry. This is a beautiful testament to her impact on your life. ::hugs::
catgeek
Aug. 30th, 2010 04:41 pm (UTC)
My sympathies. Sometimes I think I should never have any more cats, because of this pain of their loss. But never again having those little sparks of joy in my life is vastly more intolerable.
wherever
Aug. 30th, 2010 04:56 pm (UTC)
FIP is just awful, I lost a cat to it in 2004. I'm so sorry. *hugs*
jenx
Aug. 30th, 2010 05:36 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know it may not be a help to you at this moment, but know that you provided that kitten with comfort to the end.
kindredsgirl
Aug. 30th, 2010 05:38 pm (UTC)
aw. :-( So, so sad, Franklin. It is hard to lose a beautiful spirit. . . . even when it's tiny and not human.

*big hugs* to you and A also.
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